Dear ___________,

 

I am sitting here staring at my paper, contemplating putting into words the truth about what you did when you …

I bet you never thought I would be able to…

Though I have tried hard to push it out of my mind, assuming I could just move on without having to revisit the hell you…

I wanted to believe I was over all you did to me, because I had tried so hard simply to…

But, now I am having to once again think about…

To think that you simply chose to do what you did, and leave me with all of this, makes me want to…

I guess you had counted on me to continue keeping the secrets, so that you could…

Maybe you thought I would simply push it so far down that I would never remember, or that it would be “out of sight, out of mind,” but it is no longer hidden, and it is…

You thought you were so smart, so “in control,” to think I would simply be submissive and remain quiet for you, and allow your life to go on just fine, undisturbed.  But, you were wrong, because I am…

I used to fear what you could do to me, but not anymore, because…

You have benefited by my silence as you…

I have been the one to keep the world from seeing the monster you really are, the one who…

No more! No more will I remain silent about…

No more will I work to keep the memories from…

No longer will I smile, and pretend that things are OK so that you can…

Never once did you ever even try to contact me to apologize for all the…

No, you were simply going to allow the masquerade to go on, allowing people to think you were some kind of upstanding citizen, while never showing them the side that I know, the side I saw as you…  

 

To think that, with all the recent news stories coming out about abuse, and you simply risked taking your chances, instead of contacting me to….

You created a facade that the world believes, about you and your…

But, the secrets are coming out into the light, where they will become your worst nightmare now, because now I…

 

No longer will I keep you safe by keeping quiet about…

 

No longer will my life continue to suffer from what you did by…

 

No more keeping secrets… your secrets… the secrets of…

 

The reality of the situation is starting to sink in. To think that you simply used me because you could, then you thought you were still so powerful to ensure my silence, while you simply moved on with you life, is enough to make me want to…

 

You are simply a despicable human being, who thought you could do this to an innocent kid, then simply…

 

You must have really thought you were all that powerful, and that I was simply too stupid to realize that you are vulnerable to the truth that I know about…

 

We, look at who is finally catching on to just who has the power now. Oh, when the news finally gets out about this, I can only imagine…

 

Your life has seemed so put together and exemplary, because no one knows that, “off camera” you were…

 

Oh, won’t that be something for everyone to find out that you…

 

You, in your brazen ego-driven confidence, felt so sure and smug that the evil your hands perpetrated would never come back to…

 

But, guess what?!! Time for you to be the one to feel the rush of anxiety as your secret vile acts finally…

 

What a joke! To think that you really felt I was too weak and too stupid to really ever…

 

To think how your life went along just fine, while I was left to struggle with years’ worth of…

 

And, I know there is only one reason you haven’t apologized by now! It is because you were counting on me never…

 

That is how stupid and gullible and frightened you thought I was, helping to keep you propped up and out of jail, while keeping all of your evil deeds…

 

Now, as I focus on putting pen to paper, I am keenly aware…

 

The very thought of having to enter back into this makes me…

 

I’ve been sitting here remembering all the times you cared more about yourself than me by…

 

I remember how many times I used to excuse away your…

 

Wow, to think of how I used to get blamed for your…

 

You made it seem as though…

 

But, the truth is that you really…

 

How could you…

 

Why did you …

 

Why didn’t you…

 

You knew that…

I remember all the times that you never stopped…

If you had cared enough, ___________ would never have happened!!! How could you have…

I simply wanted you to…

It is as though you…

Why would you…

Couldn’t you see what __________________ was doing to me!?! What was I supposed to do to stop it?!!

I can’t tell you how many different emotions I am experiencing now, as I recall…

And, to think that now…

Here I sit, feeling ______________ simply because you…

Where were you when I needed…

Why wouldn’t you say…

What am I supposed to do with…

 

How am I supposed to…

 

I wonder how you would feel if…

It is as though you didn’t even…

I can’t believe that you…

How dare you…

To think that you attempted to…

I now know…

 

Regardless of what you say, I know the truth about…

 

I will never…

 

Though all this happened, I know that I have the strength to…

 

I will not allow your ___________________ to effect the rest of my life the way it has by…

 

Your wicked actions really impacted how I have viewed God. You stole that from me! But, I am going to....

 

To think that I have had so much stolen by your…

 

So much of my life was impacted by what you did, especially…

 

The most important parts of me were…

 

Because of you, I even thought that God was…

 

Because of you, I had actually gotten to a point where my belief in God’s love and concern for me was…

 

You took so much from me. But now I am going to rebuild my life and what I believe about…

 

I know God will…

 

Someday you will see that…

 

If I ever…

 

If you are lucky, you will…

 

I will no longer have to live under…

 

I know that I will be able to go on because…

 

Though I went through all that I did, in the future I will…

 

Don’t think that I will…

 

As far as I am concerned, …

 

You never even knew…

 

Someday you will look back and…

 

Someday I will…

 

I will show you that…

 

Someday, you will see that…

 

Though I may be in pain because of what happened, I will resolve to make it because…

 

I know that with God’s help, I will…

 

I will overcome this because…

 

I look forward to the day when I can see you…

 

What a day that will be when I can finally have the opportunity to…

 

Though you meant this for evil, I am trusting that God can help me take all of this and use it for…

Unsent Letter to a Perpetrator

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